maybe it's just that. my head tells me everything will be fine, but my heart feels otherwise. the moment you entered, you started lamenting about the hours you spent sitting in the room: questions being shot at you, accusations rolling off their tongues, sensed sarcasm as they put up a show in front of you. &yet again, the truth of the situation is still unclear to me. over this past 2 days, more than 5 times, this question has been asked. however, other than this and that, the case is still shrouded in mist; the clues too minute to piece together to finally arrive at the answer. that sentence finally did it. all of us refused to believe it. one even refused her stay HERE if the result is negative.

maybe, just maybe... would you have told us if we were much older? but still, all of us are pursuing secondary education already. is that still too young for you? i'd understand if we were totally ignorant of the matter, oblivious to it all. but, there you go. feeding us little bits of the aftermath that came sweeping in, scaring me out of my wits with the 'what ifs?'. yes, i know. you definitely want us to not worry at all about this matter, dont want us to abandon our studies. but what if, what if we promised to maintain the balance in our lives& not disrupt it in anyway? would you tell us then?
your daughter is turning 16 already. she's more an adult than a child. won't you please not keep everything to yourselves?

yes, the first 15 years of my life has been nothing but peaceful. &the devil's here to take it away.