f-aded/ inthcornerofmyheart.

Tuesday, August 28, 2007, 8:49:00 PM

it's been a long while
since i've talked to you
either on msn or through smses
you know we never ever talk face to face
though we do meet
even then, sms is still the first choice
mostly because of me i guess
am i selfish to be asking you to keep in contact with me?
u have your life
i have mine too
it was just so odd
ur online, but i cant talk to you
ur phone number's still stored in my phone
but i dont know what to say
previously
u filled me in with ur life
i filled you in with mine too
i knew whatever you knew about me
but now... i dont know anymore
i just hope u would be there on teacher's day.
:')
that's all about this..
kept this in for quite a long period of time
at least 6mths (:
but cant stand it anymore, lols
i changed the skin of THAT blog
check it out after 10pm today (:

Tuesday, August 14, 2007, 5:26:00 PM

well.. enough kidding myself..
im not that happy about her departure okay..
well.. feeling pretty down, yesterday and today.
not just me. i know josephine and shermaine is too.
huiping im not too sure. she didnt really like cry or something.
dont get me wrong, to me, crying is not a bad thing at all
and not crying, in front of us, does not mean she doesnt miss her deep down in her heart
i mean like, who wouldnt cry over a close friend's departure?
having been together for 1 and three quarter year,
it's like missing a part of life.
in my case, missing a 'teacher' too.
ming yi was always the smarter one
so, any problems with our school work,
we ask ming yi straight
without her also meant one less person to share weal and woe with
one less person to contribute to the amount of noise we would make
one less person to laugh together with
yeah... a lot of (-) points.
now moving on to songs.
ha, i was listening to this one today on my way to school
and then, suddenly, i cried once again.

lyrics:
Andy 耍无聊泡网咖
JJ 装犹豫像傻瓜
XX 你背后是你爸
Buddy 谁有本事把到校花

尴尬前女友变你阿娜达
JJ 陪着你喝到挂
XX 女孩们太伟大
什么都不怕只要我长大哦

快乐时候闹闹难过时候抱抱
认真时你不要来吵
从我们小小直到我们老老
玩伴伙伴就一些活宝

Baby Baby 将来我们都是
某个女孩唯一依靠
哦哦有阳光的味道

Baby Baby 同样一种调调
一个暗号同类才收到
哦哦碰肩膀的微笑

for the next few songs
i guess if it wasn't really describing love relationships
i guess it could describe my feelings

lyrics:
地面灯火像是星光闪耀
什么地方等着我降落停靠
走过一扇大门一座桥
什么笑容值得我凝住心跳
往前跑的人都需要摆脱遗憾的药
回到教堂祈祷那一秒

爱是三万里程的孤单
闪着等待的泪光眺望可能的远方

爱是(爱知道) 再远都在你身旁
心疼了解的目光不流泪的机场
累计(划下)或多或少的伤或真或假的谎
只求不忘了我最真的模样最真的微笑

红灯闪烁停驻的街道
蓝天绿叶的熟悉不同面貌
一张床一个停靠
黑夜白昼颠倒
谁能解读脸上的微笑

短暂的来回奔跑
不曾解开的背包
我参与的人生太潦草
快乐常在门外绕
太多陌生的夜晚让我困扰
若你能了解我会向你怀里靠

爱三万里的孤单
闪着等待的泪光眺望可能的远方

喔爱再远都在你身旁
心疼了解的目光不流泪的机场
划下或多或少的伤或真或假的谎
只求不忘了我最真的模样最真的微笑

lyrics:

没想过爱情会下落不明
寂寞都不忍心
故事的结局走不出背影
我只能静静的
风吹醒　那些曾经
转过身　我用眼泪聆听

心　该怎么学会去
适应　那些没你的安静
我　也曾小心的收起所有回忆
却总是忍不住不断的翻起
（你却一直住在心里　是谁都无法代替）

爱开始了　该怎么去喊停

, 4:38:00 PM

This is it.. i guess
though it was slightly earlier than expected
but still i haven't really got to bade her farewell properly in this blog.
so this post is specially dedicated to MING YI!

RMB the fun times we shared OKAY?
or else " wo bu hui fang guo ni de"
lol.. kidding ((:
RMB to take care of urself over at HK
last time fall sick still got us fussing over u..
now u go HK le, so due to the distance
it's tougher to show care and concern just over the web
so eat well and sleep well
must RMB to study also leh
or else later there got people smarter than u.
MUST WIN THEM! [kidding, just do ur best!]
dont just care about going online [cause we're THERE!]
YES! must rmb to eat medicine
later like that day me lidat, dunno why go crazy
jiayou jiayou worhs
MUST RMB TO MISS US!
cause we'll MISS U LIKE CRAZY TOO!
get your laptop.. and FAST
i wanna talk to U!
now it's like..
1. no internet
2. no SIM card
argh. want to talk also cannot
*sigh* nothing to add le...
nvm. TAKE CARE, OK?
and SMILE ALWAYS
smiling helps keeping u away from the bad virus... [my theory]
lol.. i think i should stop here. or else this post will never end ((:
HOPE TO SEE U IN HK ( or in singapore also can ) !!

Thursday, August 02, 2007, 8:20:00 PM

Yes!
finally got rid of that darn tuition!
that freaking a** of a teacher...
WHAT RIGHT DO YOU HAVE TO PUT ME DOWN LIKE THAT?!
WHAT RIGHT DO YOU HAVE TO TELL ME WHAT I SHOULD DO?!
WHAT RIGHT DOES SHE HAVE TO TELL ME WHAT I'M DOING WITH MY LIFE IS WRONG?!
IT'S MY LIFE, SO I LIVE THE WAY I WANT IT!
phew, feels so much better..
she was crapping about what "poor time management skills" and shit
it's more like i would SO MUCH prefer to spend MY TIME on the computer and my homework
but i've gotten over this..
its like why should i let it hinder my progress in life..
she doesnt know what courses i've taken to help me with things like that..

argh crap, i've gone way past that stage of cursing the crap out of her
in fact, i've got more things to worry about
like rujun... haish
i'm not supposed to say anything
so i'll just encourage her here...
this post is especially dedicated to her... ((:

lyrics of "Numb"

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)

[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly afraid to lose control
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take

[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you

[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be

cheer up, ok? Focus more on your studies and
DON'T, DON'T EVER GIVE UP!
hold on to it tightly!
lyrics of "she will be loved"

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along, yeah
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

[in the background]
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye

Yeah
[softly]
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain

Try so hard to say goodbye

It isnt worth it to give it up to her
so grab on, let her know you aren't easily controlled.
let her know that you're no pushover.
and all these will blow over soon enough
and you will emerge stronger than before... (:
heartfelt words by your close friend : Samantha ((:

Tuesday, August 28, 2007, 8:49:00 PM

Tuesday, August 14, 2007, 5:26:00 PM

, 4:38:00 PM

Thursday, August 02, 2007, 8:20:00 PM

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)

[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly afraid to lose control
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take

[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you

[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be

cheer up, ok? Focus more on your studies and
DON'T, DON'T EVER GIVE UP!
hold on to it tightly!
lyrics of "she will be loved"

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along, yeah
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

[in the background]
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye

Yeah
[softly]
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain

Try so hard to say goodbye